warning!! this post is kind of gay? lol
ahh feeling kind of homesick now.. but hey! its not my fault haha, its kind of the feeling where you're at home and you're bored to death then your best friend calls you over to do stuff for 1hour... and you get there and do all these awesome stuff then times up.. you have to go home back to that same old routine.
there were a lot of things i came to regret not doing while i was still in singapore. but you don't really realise what you've got until its all brutally taken away from you. i use to take the buses and mrts in singapore for granted.. sometimes even complaining how slow they are after school... and you come here all u got are buses that comes every 30 mins and you go..whoa what is this?? many other little things that would be considered luxury here. you can go to basically anywhere with 10 bucks and you're able to survive the whole day, 3 decent meals, and some money to spare. here a plate of whatever costs from 7-11 bucks,
in adelaide itself i like to think of it as a retirement village, its generally a peaceful and quiet place to live in. i wouldn't mind retiring here. the people are friendly and there arn't many people. it wouldn't be a place a teenager like me would like to live in. the metro system is average, you can get to most places but you just have to get the timing of the buses right. there are a lot of nice people here but there are limited things you can do. glenelg beach, movies, tea tree plaza, marion, karaoke, rundle mall, stickies, and sports. thats basically all there is to do in adelaide. nothing much else you can do even out of town. i guess if you're up to it you can go fishing or probably camping. if you're an outdoor person it wouldn't be quite bad. im kind of a mix between both but having grown up in singapore with the endless flow of public transports and endless of things to do adelaide does seem kind of empty.
i also apologize to all my sg friends which i kind of neglected over the past 3 years, haven't been talking to you guys at all.
i really wish i can stay in singapore.. and my recent trip back i was too excited and a little lazy but realised that i should have maintained contact with all of you even if i was coming back or not. i kind of felt really guilty when i got there and only met up with fred, nick tan, bk. thanks to those that tried to make it but perhaps the next time we can meet up and have a good chat.
the night i touched down, i came out of the airport in my aunty's car, i looked around and everything was soo...home like, srsly felt soo happy haha! i swear i could have walked all the way from changi to toa payoh just oogling at everything! lush green trees, tall high rised building, the thing about australia is everywhere is landed property makes it look very isolated and spaced out where as singapore everything is compacted, its kind of individual but i kind of think it makes it seem more entwined? like everyone knows each other, a more community feeling. lol im not very good at expressing myself am i? when we got home everything just went click, i was back home! and the sense of familiarity took over. its a feeling i will never be able to experience in australia. in australia my mum and her side of the family likes to fancy themselves as upperclass people thus stressing a lot on formalities, we have to be very well mannered and smart at all times especially when we have meals with them and if anything was unsatisfactory we get this long long lecture and stuff like that. but in singapore the whole family ( dads side )with the exception of my dad sit around this huge table we have and eat, and after all those years of being in australia i was actually kind of surprised like my cousins would tease my ah ma and stuff and then ah ma will tease back and stuff and if i did that here ill get kicked out of the house lol... yea i miss that feeling of being apart of an actual family where the first concern is about your other family members instead of the image outsiders will have about you.
my last day of singapore was probably the worst day i will ever experience in this life. i tried my best to spend the most time with my other family members, let my ah ma fuss over me while i was putting my shirt on lol, went to the airport to have dinner with them and my ah ma hardly ate, she just sat there after having a couple of spoonfuls of rice. she just sat there staring at us, occasionally tearing and i cant help but feel kind of sad that ill leave her there by herself. we went walking around and taking pictures together. then it was time to go in the boarding area thing and i had to say goodbye to my family and i swear if i looked at them anymore i would just rip my air ticket up. i said a brief goodbye, hugged them and just walked straigt in. turned back twice and saw my ah ma crying, everyone else was on the verge of tears, so i just waved smiled, lol lips wobbled so much haha yea just kept walking and didn't look back after. saw sabian in the airport so that kind of diverted my mind a little. ahh ill leave it here for now...